Precious little baby

Hello baby con..
Ur mama, me is on diet. Skip breakfast today. Eat a piece of watermelon for lunch.. and a proper meal for dinner... den... 4 am... Maggie mee.. snacks.. and fried nugget.. bleah.. everyone around me keep saying I fat.. =( so sad. I was looking at you sleeping.. u r so small..so tiny.. I looked at ur baby photo... newborn I mean.. u still a baby right now.. u r so tiny. I can't help. I need to protect u this tiny little thing. I wonder how come some woman can just dump their newborn baby like that. U r so cute and tiny. U need protection. Mama will protect u with my live. U like to flip on ur stomach and sleep recently. Getting kinda stress. U flip I turn u flip I turn u flip I dun turn u cry.-_-. Naughty little thing. Haha love u baby.. love u so much.

Cherish

Hello little baby con.

I love you.

You seems to grow up fast.

I suddenly worried, that i might not be able to sleep with you on a single bed.

might not be able to carry u in my arms.

might not have to feed u cause u eat on ur own.

....

I must.. cherish all this moment now.

I love you baby.

Daddy's Sometimes You Just Invade My Thoughts #2 - Surprise INVASION

Hello Connor!

Here I was stressing over the mountains of work on my desk today. And SUDDENLY! Like, really really SUDDENLY! You flooded my thoughts.

And I just think, of all the things that you are. All the little things we done (like you kicking me in my balls 2 days ago. Hard. Why do you hate siblings?) and all the times we shared (usually with some form of puke/spit of yours on my shirt). And I just really love you!

Yesterday your mum showed me a video of you being very very very naughty and wanting to kick the snails and bees on your shaker! Haha it's cute... In a rather annoying way >.> makes me feel like biting your cheeks and making you into ET face again (the nickname for your face when you scrunch it up in one of your big cries)

Yesterday I was on Skype with your mum going to start a game. You were sleeping. Then before the start she needed to use the toilet. So I was there, listening to your room. Then suddenly you started crying. First it was a sputter, like coughs mixed with cries, then it slowly grew into a full-blown cry. I felt so helpless, hearing you cry but not able to comfort you. I guess that's what your mum meant when she said the first night you were in the cot in the hospital with her unable to move. And seeing you cry but not able to help broke her heart.

Yeah. You break hearts. Our hearts. You little heartbreak kid. (Shawn Michaels is the original heartbreak kid :D)

Fever Baby Con

Hello Baby Con.

Two days ago you went for injection again.

I don't understand why nowadays babies need injection every month.

Though Dada says its good. But, us without injection, or your grandma era, even worse

don't even have proper doctor and shit are perfectly healthy.

Whatever it is, after the injection, about 5 hours later, and while we were at

Seletar Mall, u started crying and screaming.

We were eating some fast food, Texas Chicken I think, people all around

keep looking at me and saying things in Cantonese.

Which I totally understand. Saying you are having stomachache cause there's wind

in your stomach and stuff. One old bitch even approach me and tell me

you kana chua sai. Means you got scared thats why.

I dun understand how come these people.. not knowing what happen to you

the whole day, E.G you just had injection, Doctor said there might be a chance you 

will have fever, you are teething. Theres 2 cute lil teeth.

So they totally dunno shit. And there they go, giving advice.

I know they being nice, trying to help. But you were already crying and screaming

I am damn stress already, because I can't help you much. So i prefer them to F O.

Later at night u had a fever. 38.1. Broke my heart.

My cute lil man.

Den you pee on my bed again.

Change bedsheet straight away. 

Put u in the crib, u crying and screaming.

Change bedsheet in full speed mode.

Then theres a lizard crawling around the bed.

I tried to shoo it away, but it was like middle of the night 2am or 1am, forgot

and u were crying, so i vacuum the lizard. =P

Poor thing.

Scare it might run into ur mouth while u sleep.

Since u always open ur mouth big big. Hahaa sometimes i put my finger in.

Hmm.

For fun.

=P!

The whole day u just cry and cry and cry.

I didnt get much sleep.

Didnt get anything done.

Rush to guardian to buy panadol for baby in liquid form.

and Koolfever to stick on ur head.

I just hope i could be more useful.

But now, u r okay again!

almost rush u to the A&E.

Don't scare Mama and Dada anymore ok.

Wee~

I love you.

My smelly lil thing.

Dad Letter #4 - Every moment with you is a blessing

Hello Connor,

You would have noticed I skipped a number. I have #3 in draft, but I just read something online that invoked great emotions in me. I will paste it here.

And its true. I can already glimpse my future sadness, and I fear it. Your mum probably does too. There's nothing I can do though, my only regret in life is that life cannot be recorded to be re-experienced.

Every moment with you is a blessing. I love you.

LoveYou

Hi my dear lil baby con.

I still loving you like mad everyday.

Kiss you every second.

U r so damn cute!!

Flatty face.

Muacks.

Happy new year connor boy!

Mama and Dada gonna save all the ang baos for you.

My lil cutie pie.

U already know how to flip when i put you to tummy time.

Aww.

U grew so fast.

And u pee on my bed today RIGHT after i change bedsheet.

So CUTE!

Stupid Flu

Hi little Connor Boy.

Mummy cooking dinner, Gong gong hugging you walking all around now.

U been having flu for 3 days now.

Need to dig more nose.

Everytime we dig for you, you be like screaming.

But u can't seems to be breathing well.

So..sorry. DIG DIG.

I wanna tell you.

U r now 3 months 26 days old.

I haven stopped loving you for a second.

Love u so much my lil man.