A new challenger appears!

Hello con, these days you've been acting differently. I think it's due to the arrival of your brother and both of us having a lot of attention and time and effort sucked into taking care of him. I am sure you will eventually understand, but really, at your age, it is understandable that you do not.

Just know that, we love you the same as before, if not more. If anything, I've tried to increase shows of affections with you. Bear with it OK? Before you know it you'll have a lifelong accomplice and ally, bonded by the red blood of life.

Scary day.

Hello precious.. mummy gonna go for c sec operation in 3 hours time. I am scared. So scared. Cause what if I died. My precious Connor gonna be without a mum. I love you precious. Ur dad sucks. Just had a quarrel with him. Can't even let me operate in peace. I don't need him anyways. I love you Connor. If anything were to happen... please.. I wish u happy always. My precious.. u r so precious to me.. u r my everything. I really love you. God bless me. I wanna take care of my con until he's eighty. Please.

Precious

Baby. My baby con. U are three years old now. Its 5.30am... u just cried in your sleep because I am not around. Went out to play game... the moment u cry I come in already. And now u r happily hugging me. And me, happily hugging u. I love u Connor. Watching your video.. u celebrating your birthday.. u dancing, you singing, you playing, Everythinf about you, makes me feel lIke crying. I love u so much even though u r just beside me. I can't afford to lose u. Just thinking about u growing up, falling in love, moving out of house and maybe forget about me... makes my heart ache so much. I dun know how long I am gonna live for.. I only know I dun wan to die. I wanna be with you. Until the day u forget about me. Why r u so precious to me. My love for u is overflowing. I love you so much. Its tiring because every second of my life I am worrying about losing you. When its raining, I am worried that u might be crying at school because u r scare of thunder. When u get bitten by mosquito I am worried because u got sensitive skin. When we go out I am worried because u always run around or run away, exploring the place without waiting for me. What if someone took u away... OMG I can't continue living my life without you. At the end of the day all the worrying is worth it. Though it makes me age faster. Everytime when... I am sad. Feel like crying because me, ur mum is emotionally weak... looking at ur pictures... make me happy again. My precious connor.. I love u.