Hello AGAIN!

 Hi my babies.

Its been awhile since i last blog about life.

Well life is still life. Just that you both are big boys now.

All u guys want is TABLET, ROBUX! No one even care about poor little mummy now.

Not even ur dada. I guess everyone have something that they want, and while chasing those

they lose track of the things or LIFE around them. Well not saying i am some kind of saint.

All I WANT Is YARN!

EHEHEHE. My beautiful boys, I feel like i am making a big mistake now letting u guys play 

all you want TABLET buffet.

Connor is failing MATH and CHINESE. Well chinese is a ... sure fail but MATH has always been your strongest subject. Ah well.

Finny, u are a arsehole. Stop peeing on my bed. I gonna die from changing bedsheet.

Didnt expect much from Finny xD. 

I just hope the two of you will grow up, become a man.

Not all grown up boys is a man.

Man is responsible for his own family and his own action

Man have self control over his wants.

Man take care of others.

Man think before he speak or act.

Not just because u all grown up = you man.

Most importantly, A man loves his family, willing to sacrifice whatever for them.

Like, APEX OVER FAMILY. YES JERRY YEO. YOU.

Throwing tantrum at the wife cause of APEX. Say hurtful things cause he lost a game.

Stupid face for weeks cause of game.

These not man. These boys.

Angels.

Hi precious. My Con and my Finn. Connor, u are officially a phone addict. Everytime I remove the phone from u be like "AWww WHY MUMMY??!!" plus lotsa whining and crying. U hardly chase finny around the house anymore. It's usually filled with laughter.. makes me kinda sad. Confiscate!

Finny. U r an ass! U like music. So u started using all sort of stuff to whack almost everything to make noise pollution. Even the TV SCREEN u whack it with a whisk! It's just sad..  the tv.. it's sad. U beside me sleeping with that super duper cute face. Been kissing u like a desperate mad woman. 

I love u both so much. I can't ever imagine my life without any one of u. Please stay safe my naughty boys. I hope u live a long healthy happy life. 

Just in case u forget how mummy look like. 

 

Love u guys so much. We have fun playing with this app. Hehe

Look at finny. I am LMAO now. 

 

Ma con happily eating cheesecake. 

No comments there finny.

The naughty duo.

Solder ready for war.

The Pox Brother

Hiya my little precious. The two of u had chicken pox. Together. like brothers in arm. Its been 2 weeks, life without preschool. Kakaka life is hard. Finn basically threw all the bowls on the floor and chopstick. And u guys will fight and quarrel over magnets. Dada bought alot of magnets for u to play. I wonder if u will remember when u grow up. MAGNETS Connor man favourite toys. Blue tack, slime. Haha. And finny, all u want is food. My finny getting fatter and fatter by the day and con man is getting skinnier and skinnier. I love you both so much. Was hoping ur dada might consider MAKING another girl in the house.

My two beautiful boys. i love you so much. everyday my brain just keep thinking of loving u loving u, ur naughty little face. and den heart hurts when i thought of the 2 of u growing up into big boys and one day will have friends, girlfriend u rather spend ur time with... time is so limited. My precious.. smelly mouth thing. gonna go kiss them smelly mouth.

Finny and Connor

Hello my lil precious. This blog was dedicated to you but just so u know.. u had a naughty lil brother now. Remember at this current date, day and time.... U bully him all the time. You tried carrying him but fail and drop him on the floor instead.. I dunno what to say precious. U are trying to be nice kor kor and all but.. everything just backfired. Haha.

To my lil finny, ur kor kor loves u so. I think. Haha. He fed you mamee snack... He share his biscuit with you... sometimes... Though he's the one who eat away all your baby bites. 

Poor finny is having a bad cough now.. he cough during his sleep. So nobody get much sleep nowadays.. and there's a Wuhan virus going on. No more going out this period of time! Rather be safe than sorry. 

I love you both so much. U guys just keep doing the things you do. I.e. Connor wrecking havoc, finny crying all the time due to Connor wrecking havoc, dada piak ur palm due to finny crying because of you wrecking havoc. Ok whatever. Love you all the same or more. 

My con man. My precious little con man. U r my everything. U are a big kor kor now. Though only 4. U have another responsibility now. Protect your Didi at all cost! Help him learn, help him grow into a better person, teach him all the good stuff. I hope u guys be the best partner in everything, best friend forever, best brothers in arm and love each other deeply.

My finny man. My smelly lil precious saliva finny man. U are one years old now. U stick to me all the time. Everywhere I go, kitchen, toilet wherever, u name it. U be there pulling my pants crying asking for baobao. U cute Lil thing. I pray ur coughing goes away fast and never come back. U can always pass to mummy. I will carry all the shit u give me. Haha. Recently on the 24 December, you been abuse by ur childcare teacher. She's a malay wearing tedung. (Symbolise peace or smthing) ah well apparently not. The school shows us the video of the incident and we get a shock of our life. Me and ur dada. It was violent. I didn't know u have to go through all this.. it's really sad someone in this world would actually lay their hands on a one year old cute Lil thing like u. We all learnt something from this, my precious... Police report had been made. She's gonna go jail soon. Justice is served! I m sorry my lil finny... I suppose to protect you.. please forgive me. This won't happen again.. not to you or your naughty brother. 

Love you both so much. So so much

I love you Connor

Hi Connor. This period it's been rotation of sickness between you and Finn (occasionally your mum and me). It's a virus known as RSV.

Anyways I didn't come here to talk about that. I came to tell you that I love you. Just that these days you must feel confused. Daddy alternates between showers of love and bouts of strictness.

I have a thinking. Love doesn't just mean toys and fun and games. Sometimes love is tough, because educating and equipping you with the discipline to become a respectful and respectable man, might be a greater love.

Because while Mummy and daddy will love you no matter what, later in life you'll meet people who have no in-built reasons to love you. And they will judge you to see if you're worthy of their love and care. And some of these people, you might care about their opinions of you.

And since you'll likely become a daddy yourself one day (well, it's a choice after all), I'll leave you with this advice. As a father, it is not your job to be well-liked. Sure it's nice and all, but your job is not that. Instead, your job is to educate and instill values as best as you can.

Daddy doesn't know how long he'll be around. I hope to live and see you find your own happiness, but life is unpredictable. So perhaps I'll write more often. Perhaps.

A new challenger appears!

Hello con, these days you've been acting differently. I think it's due to the arrival of your brother and both of us having a lot of attention and time and effort sucked into taking care of him. I am sure you will eventually understand, but really, at your age, it is understandable that you do not.

Just know that, we love you the same as before, if not more. If anything, I've tried to increase shows of affections with you. Bear with it OK? Before you know it you'll have a lifelong accomplice and ally, bonded by the red blood of life.

Scary day.

Hello precious.. mummy gonna go for c sec operation in 3 hours time. I am scared. So scared. Cause what if I died. My precious Connor gonna be without a mum. I love you precious. Ur dad sucks. Just had a quarrel with him. Can't even let me operate in peace. I don't need him anyways. I love you Connor. If anything were to happen... please.. I wish u happy always. My precious.. u r so precious to me.. u r my everything. I really love you. God bless me. I wanna take care of my con until he's eighty. Please.

Precious

Baby. My baby con. U are three years old now. Its 5.30am... u just cried in your sleep because I am not around. Went out to play game... the moment u cry I come in already. And now u r happily hugging me. And me, happily hugging u. I love u Connor. Watching your video.. u celebrating your birthday.. u dancing, you singing, you playing, Everythinf about you, makes me feel lIke crying. I love u so much even though u r just beside me. I can't afford to lose u. Just thinking about u growing up, falling in love, moving out of house and maybe forget about me... makes my heart ache so much. I dun know how long I am gonna live for.. I only know I dun wan to die. I wanna be with you. Until the day u forget about me. Why r u so precious to me. My love for u is overflowing. I love you so much. Its tiring because every second of my life I am worrying about losing you. When its raining, I am worried that u might be crying at school because u r scare of thunder. When u get bitten by mosquito I am worried because u got sensitive skin. When we go out I am worried because u always run around or run away, exploring the place without waiting for me. What if someone took u away... OMG I can't continue living my life without you. At the end of the day all the worrying is worth it. Though it makes me age faster. Everytime when... I am sad. Feel like crying because me, ur mum is emotionally weak... looking at ur pictures... make me happy again. My precious connor.. I love u.

So many photos!!!

Hi baby Connor~

You're not so baby anymore. But not really grown either. Kinda, you're super heavy but really still a baby in my eyes haha.

Anyways, you're still calling me "dada", so, dada has been uploading pictures of you into google photos from our dropbox. AND THERE IS HELL LOTSSSS.

Oh, and dada is really wanting to buy you a ride on car. But you're the terror who destroys toys with but a glance. Hmmm.

I cant live without you.

Baby. Baby. Baby Connor. U r now officially horrible three!! Congrats. They said when all babies turned two years old they are called the terrible two. The age where they run jump climb scream shout. And yes you did all of these.. and now u turned three. It's call the horrible three. Whatever it is.. my love for u... Still. Overflowing. U r sleeping over at my dad place tonight. I started to imagine wild stuff. U being hurt and stuff. I can't take it. My heart hurts so much. I wanna hug u. I wanna Sayang ur little botak head. Wanna kiss ur lil smelly feet. I miss u so much. I am smelling your bolster and pillow now. Connor I can't live on without you. Typing all this stuff makes me feel like crying. I always wonder what happen when u get older. Will u abandon me. Will u break my heart. Will u be so rebellious u started whacking ur own mum. Cause that's what happen to my aunt. Her Beloved son pushes her intentionally over his gf. And the son doesn't know. But his mum always worried for him always mention him always protects him. She loved him so much. How do u think she feel when he chooses to hurt her over some girl.

My precious. Just to let you know. Whatever happen in the future, I love you. I am willingly to give up my life for you. But I dun wan to die to other stuff. I wanna watch you grow. I wanna protect you. I wanna be there for u. Cause I am ur wowwie. My cute little precious baby. I love u forever. U r so precious to me.