Hello baby con.
Today is the first day i put you at childcare.
Mama and dada paid 3k for this.
TO suffer!!!
Grandma says i cannot work yet.
cause cannot just dump u there and leave.
But childcare doesnt allow me to stay for long.
The moment i pass you to the caretaker,
they put u on the floor.
You eyes become sparkling.
Eat carpet.
Eat toys.
And play with mirror.
You seems so happy, you didnt even look at me once.
I squat down at a corner, watching you.
And after an hour or so, the caretaker kept saying i can leave.
i assume they just wanna kick me out and start abusing you!!
so i left, and hid behind the door and theres a small glass panel..
i watch you.. and my heart broke.
i loiter around the block... feel like crying.
I cant believe i dump u there!!
My heart ache..
But... mama need to work soon.
Mama have only 100 in bank.
Dada is broke from buying milk powder and theres a car to support.
I went home..
Thought i could finally sleep without you punching me
pulling my hair
stepping on my stomach and boobs.
or you slapping my face.
But i couldnt.
after an hour or so i fell asleep hugging your VERY smelly pillow.
And now it is wash and drying.
Every second with you brings me joy.
i love you so much.
You r the greatest gift i ever receive.
from god. not from your dada.
Baby con.. please love me when you grow up.
love me like how i love you.
remember to hug me when i grow old.
my lil man.
Love you lots.
Connor boy 1 on 1 with fan.
So cute!
Mama bought lots of ball ball for you, Mini ball ball land at home!
Free tent from buying hell lots of diapers.
