Baby. My baby con. U are three years old now. Its 5.30am... u just cried in your sleep because I am not around. Went out to play game... the moment u cry I come in already. And now u r happily hugging me. And me, happily hugging u. I love u Connor. Watching your video.. u celebrating your birthday.. u dancing, you singing, you playing, Everythinf about you, makes me feel lIke crying. I love u so much even though u r just beside me. I can't afford to lose u. Just thinking about u growing up, falling in love, moving out of house and maybe forget about me... makes my heart ache so much. I dun know how long I am gonna live for.. I only know I dun wan to die. I wanna be with you. Until the day u forget about me. Why r u so precious to me. My love for u is overflowing. I love you so much. Its tiring because every second of my life I am worrying about losing you. When its raining, I am worried that u might be crying at school because u r scare of thunder. When u get bitten by mosquito I am worried because u got sensitive skin. When we go out I am worried because u always run around or run away, exploring the place without waiting for me. What if someone took u away... OMG I can't continue living my life without you. At the end of the day all the worrying is worth it. Though it makes me age faster. Everytime when... I am sad. Feel like crying because me, ur mum is emotionally weak... looking at ur pictures... make me happy again. My precious connor.. I love u.
